她记得 | she remembers

d person used to remember her birthday
d person stops wishing her Happy Birthday

her disappointment towards happenings
her sadness over incidents
her efforts gone down into d drain
her love gave way
her dream remain dream
her wish remain wish
 

her heart sank on d day "don't call me ****"

her words are shame

her actions are shame

her special address to d person sealed n locked

her words to d person stop at lips
her misery unsung 

her pain untold
her reasons unrevealed

she tired of quarreling
she fed up of arguing
she lost control of emotion
she gave up

her respect to d person unchanged
her love to d person as a shadow of daddy unchanged

her care unchanged

her feeling unchanged

her reserved portion in d heart unchangd

she still loves d person as
a father
a teacher
a coach
a guide
a master
 

“一日为师，终身为父”
"a teacher of a day, a father of a life time"

she cannot ring d person
she cannot initiate chat window
she cannot pay a visit

on d 3rd of June 

she silently wishing d person 

and

Pet Owl loves u

失望 | disappointment

每个人都有心愿
everyone has wish

每个人都渴望心愿实现的那一刻
everyone anxiously hoping d wish comes true

每个人都有盼望
everyone has hope

每个人都有盼望最温馨浪漫的一瞬间
everyone looking forward for d hope

然而
however

事实是残酷的
reality is cruel

对不起 | sorry

不是每一句对不起，都可以换来一句没关系

d word "sorry" couldn't mend a broken trusted heart

单程车票 | one way ticket

时间和心灵都是单程车票

time change, heart change, sometimes there is no return

信任 | trust

信任就是一把刀，你给了他，他能捅你也可以保护你。

trust is a blade, whom u trust may return with harm or protection.

心情 | frame of mind

复杂是一种心情，争取是一是心态；

珍惜因为曾经伤过，遗忘纯粹于累积的失望！

错误 | mistake

等待是错误的。。。

waiting is a mistake...

 抱着期望的等待是个大错误。。。

waiting with hope is a BIG mistake... 

干爹干女儿 | godfather-goddaughter

 

看似简单却不简单。一个心愿，会实现吗。。。?

not as simple as one think it is. will d Wish come true...?

尊严 | dignity

别去打扰那些以借口疏远你的人

do not disturb whom find excuses to avoid u

 

也许离开是做好的选择

may be leaving is d best choice

害怕 | fear

我總是害怕，有一天你會發現，我沒有你想像中那麼好。
I am afraid, one day u will realized I am not as good as your expectation.

熟悉的陌生人 | familiar stranger

it took years to know d person
from stranger
to friend
to close friend
to trust
to love
to care
to accept as godfather
most of all
d courage
to call d person “papa”

it took months to avoid d person
with acts
with lies
with hurts

it took a day to give d person d last moment of togetherness
a ride
a breakfast
a walk
a mountain trek
a dinner

it took a minute to shred d person away
with a sharp "request" stab straight into d heart

a universal word “sorry”
a continuous lie “u r always in my heart”

d dream
d wish
d hope
d trust
d love
d friend
d "pet owl"
d goddaughter

are JUST NOT REAL..... FAKE........ PLAIN FAKE

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

it is hurting, very very hurt...

泪 | tears

雨水落下來，是因为天空无法承受它的重量。
rain drops as d cloud couldn't hold d weight.

眼泪掉下來，是因为心再也无法承受那样的伤痛。
tear drops as d feeling can no longer hold on to d pain.

失望 （六） | disappointment (6)

感情想牙齿，掉了就没了，再装也是假的。

feeling like tooth, once lost it is forever lost

失望 （五） | disappointment (5)

有时候躲避是不让自己那么失望

sometimes avoiding is to lessen disappointment

失望 （四） | disappointment (4)

我离开，不是我不在乎，是我失望。。。

 over disappointment causes her to leave... 

失望 （三） | disappointment (3)

谢谢你的不珍惜，让我学会了放弃。。。

thank you for your cold shoulder , it teaches me a lesson...

失望 （二） | disappointment (2)

如果不再明白为何信任的人伪装，那就选择离开吧。。。

if u no longer understand why d person u trust acts & lies, just leave...

失望 （一） | disappointment (1)

哪里有人喜欢孤独，不过是受够了失望

over disappointment creates loneliness

淘汰 | phasing out

on d new year of 2017
d silent
d cold shoulder
d "request"
d "no"
d uncomfortable gesture
d hint
d avoiding
he is so near yet so far...
he is going further n further... from her sight
she is phasing out
she has been replaced

on d new year of 2017
d beginning of changes
d start of losing 
d sense of falling apart
d push to return to d past
history repeats

爱即是痛 | love hurts

Love brings happiness, happiness causes jealousy, jealousy causes hatred, hatred creates harm, harm causes hurt, hurt causes sadness, sadness bring tears...

Love hurts... very hurts!!!