那里 | There

那里
那个所在
原本是一个家
却不果
十年过去了
仍然空空动动
来去多少回
感觉依然是个新居所
很遗憾
那里没有声音也没有气息
网上
多少画面
熟悉的他，他，他，她，她，她
心里只有羡慕
心里有股说不出口的感觉和感受
笔墨难以形容
那种画面
是否会有一天
降临在自己身上
一个期待
一个期许
一个盼望

男人和女人 | Men and Women

男人看女人，女人看男人，都是莫名其妙的。
men look at women, women look at men,baffling.
 

你敢说，你了解对方吗？
do you dare to say you understand d other side?

要 | want

衣橱里的衣服穿得完吗？
can you wear all the clothes in the closet?

厨房内的用具用得完吗？
can you use all the utensil in the kitchen?

书柜上的书籍看得完吗？
can you read all the books on the shelf?

闲来走走逛逛？
free and easy window shopping

我们继续买
we continuously buy

因为需要吗？
because we need it?

还是抵挡不过欲望？
or couldn't stop the desire of buying? 

感觉 | feeling

每个人都有

everyone has it

每个人都能感受得到
everyone feels it

好与坏
good or bad

不停的改变
keep changing

每个人每一天
everyone each and everyday

有些人向人倾述
some people talk about it

有些人当笑话
some people joke about it

有些人埋在心里
some people keep it to oneself

有些人当成理所当然
some people take it for granted

有些人利用它
some people make use of it

你怎么处理它
what do you do with it

你向谁说
who do you talk to

你相信谁
who can you trust

无题 | untitled

很想告诉你

I like to tell you

我很想去那里

I like to go there

可是我不会去

but I don't know how to go

你。。。可以带我去吗？

can you... bring me along?

雨点 | rain drops

大雨点小雨点

big rain drops small rain drops

 

明白小不点

each drops understand me

 

高山 ● 心愿 | mountain ● wish

一座她极羡慕的高山
在她失去至亲最伤心的时候
他带着她
初步认识它
一步一步往上爬
   :
   :
石子
   :
   :
斜坡
   :
   :
树根
   :
   :
瀑布
   :
   :
虽然没有到高山顶
但是她很开心
他曾经带给她快乐
那个曾经快乐的地方
如今却是个伤心的所在
高山依然在那里
心却已破碎
她的心愿还是心愿
无法实现的心愿

十月二十九日 （二） | 29-October (2)

只是另一个二十四小时
Just another 24 hours

伤感的心情
feeling of sadness

失望早已是习惯
disappointment has become a norm

 

十月二十九日 （一） | 29-October (1)

生日 | birthday?
开心吗 | happy?
梦想成真吗 | wishes come true?

想念 （二） | missing (2)

想念往年的自己。。。 / i miss myself...

想念 （一） | missing (1)

想念往年的自己。。。 / i miss myself...

幸福 | happiness

错误 / false
假象 / fake
幻影 / illusion
不存在的 / doesn't exist

梦 ● 愿 ● 碎 | dream ● wish ● broken

梦与愿皆由心造
a dream is a wish your heart makes

愿我还是个小孩
I wish I was a kid again

因为
because

皮外伤远比破碎的心灵容易修复

skinned knees are easier to fix than broken heart 

很痛
very painful
 

“我不要了”

幸福 | happiness

幸福是
happiness is

一种感觉
a feeling

爱与被爱的感觉
d feeling of love and being love

恋爱。。。 订婚。。。 结婚。。。 生子。。。
courtship... engagement... holy matrimony... new born...

小康之家
contented family

幸运的
fortunate

对方负责任
he/she a responsible counterpart

感情长一点点
long lasting affection

享受多一些
blessed

错误 | mistake

many years ago

calling her mum is a mistake
someone in d family not welcoming her
joke of d year
humiliations of her life

many years later
calling him papa is a mistake
someone in d family not welcoming her
joke in d community
embarrassment of her life

他 | he

他是来占便宜的
he came to take advantage

他来是因为你有利用价值
he came when she is still useful

他为你的身体而来
he came for her body

他为你的处女身而来
he came for her virginity

他誓言
he promised

他承诺
he vowed

他争取你的信任
he just wanted to gain her trust

他拿
he took from her

他用
he used her

你失去一切
she lost everything

你无法再给
she had nothing left to give him

他厌倦了
he bored of her

他弃你一边
he abandoned her

他人离开
he left her

他根本不认识你
he no longer know her

他人 | people

他人因好奇而来

people come when they curious

他人发掘你的用处
people find out what they can get from u

他人把你当朋友
people take you as a friend

你给
you give

你再给
you give again

你再给再给再给再给
you give again n again n again n again

直到有一天
till one day

你无法再给
you have nothing to give anymore

你的利用价值也告结束
you are no longer able to be taken advantage from


你不再是朋友
you are no longer a friend

你什么都不是
you are nothing

爱 ● 时间 | love ● time

time doesn't build love
time doesn't guarantee love
time doesn't keep love
love is illusion
love is fake
love is lies

改变 | change

人以两个因素而改变：
people change for two main reasons:

或许脑袋想通了，还是心伤了

either their minds have been opened or their hearts have been broken

你呢。。。？

how about you...?

假 | fake

uncle... brother... friend...
half-daddy... papa... God-father...
love... care... promises...
lies... all lies...

舍与得 | lost but found

as times goes by | 岁月流逝

we lost many friends | 我们失去很多朋友

however we found true friend | 不过我们发现谁才是真正的朋友

选择 | option

说真话，还是说善意的谎言。。。？
tell d truth, or white lies...?

会说话的手指 （二） | talking fingers (2)

心里的感受，手指知道

deep down feeling, every finger knows

会说话的手指 （一） | talking fingers (1)

伤心是一种感觉
upset is a feeling

很多时候很难用语言来表达
many times it is hard to express in words

红绿灯 | traffic light

人生，就像红绿灯，一会儿红，一会儿绿。
life is like a traffic light, one moment RED, another moment GREEN.

红的时候呀，就没法动了，动了就会出交通事故。
when it is RED, no moving forward else will cause accident.

绿的时候呢，就一路通畅无阻。
when it is GREEN, smooth sailing.

有时你远远看着那灯是绿的，等车子加速到了跟前，却可能突然就红了。
sometimes from far it is GREEN light, once approaching near, it turns to RED light.

有时远看是红的，到了跟前就变绿了。
sometimes from far it shows RED, when we reach, it turns to GREEN.

有的车到路口，都可能是绿灯变红灯，有的车到路口，都是红灯变绿灯。
at d junction, GREEN light may change to RED light and vice versa.

他们为一次红灯而焦虑不安，或为一次绿灯而兴奋不已呢
we are uneasy to see RED light, we are excited to see GREEN light.

原来自己一直在人生的路口撞着红灯。
in fact, most of d time we are moving forward against RED light in our life.

绿灯总会闪起，远方依然在召唤。
anyhow GREEN light will lights up, just in front, waving at us.

成功的时候，不要忘记人生还有红灯。
when we success, don't forget there may be another RED light.

失败的时候，不要忘记前边可能就是绿灯。
when we fail, don't forget there is a GREEN light just not too far away.

琴声心声 | inner voice piano tune

放弃
选择放弃
不容易
没了跑步
也没了爬山
离开熟悉的泊油路
也告别郊外及深山的花草树木
再次回到孤单的日子
静静的一个人
在空空洞洞并充满回声的单位
仿佛看到那数年前的自己
好不容易挣扎脱离
怎么又回到这种生活
七年
九年附加一年
五年
这段时间
一场又一场不开心的经历
心里明白
谁是真哪个假
真正不会伤害自己的人是父母
真正不会欺骗自己的人也是父母
朋友，知己，干爹，诺言，信任，宣言，证书
都是假的
自己永远都是没有生命的东西
一旦没了价值
少了新鲜感
命运
可想而知
心里很多话
脑海里很多荧幕和画面
向谁说
懂你的人
不用说什么他们都会明白
不懂你的人
就算解释了也被认为是在编故事
人来人往
多少个迷茫
多少个历经沧桑
有经历的人满怀故事
原来
亲手带回来的钢琴
七年，十年，五年
静静的
寸步不离的靠在墙边
从来都没有离开
厚厚的尘埃
缓缓打开琴盖
轻轻一弹
声音依旧响亮
向你倾述心声最好不过
娓娓道来
每一曲都充满情感
不需要约定
也不需要承诺
八十八颗黑白琴键
默默的听我述说心情心事
只有你
明了我的心

熬 | going through hard time

万事不过一个 “熬” 字，感情尤其如是。。。

珍惜 | treasure

把每一天看似人生的最后一天

appreciate as if it is d last day of togetherness

悲曲 | sad song

不再开心
no longer happy

不再有笑容
no longer smile

回到屋顶
back to alley

回到孤独空间
back to loneliness

弃之一旁的四弦琴
long abandoned violin

尘埃厚厚的琴键
dusty piano keys

对琴弹情
tell d feeling to it

混合真感觉
blend in d true feeling

悲曲飘扬
sad melodies

生命 | life

尊重生命 · 生命不是商品 · 生命不是交易

 treat life with respect · life is not a commodity · life should not be trade

笨 | stupid

stick with someone that doesn't care about you at all is stupidity

心 · 河 | feeling · river

心像一条流动的河，时而平静时而起伏。 

feeling is like a river, at one time is calm at another time it roars

 

永恒 | forever

没有永恒的朋友，只有永恒的利益。
there is no friendship forever, but forever using each other.
 

放弃 | give up

give up is a way to free the soul

伤感 | sadness

有些人

some people

 

只能停留在你的心中

only available in our heart

 

不能停留在你的生活中

not in our daily life

字 · 语 | word · language

文字是有力量的
word has weight

言语是有力量的
language has strength

有些人本领写
some people good in writing

有些人本领说
some people good in speaking

也有一些人两者兼顾
some people good in both

更有一些人把文字和言语当武器
some people even use it as an invincible weapon

伤害身边的人
hurting d love one

假象 | false image

外表显得坚强的她

心里很脆弱
外表显得越坚强的她
心里越脆弱
一段不愉快的过去
沉淀心里边
与众不同的感觉
依然隐藏心底
想说的话
溜到嘴边又往肚里咽
众人前
总是嘻嘻哈哈笑容满面
却没有人知道
夜深人静时
孤单彷徨
满脑子的一切
足以让她哭着入睡

在乎 | concern

因为爱，所以会痛。。。| Due to love, it hurts...

心图 | map of d heart

心如工画师，能画诸世间

空头承诺 | empty promise

首次的攀岩
first hike attempt

曾经的答应
a promised

高高的山峰
top mountain peak

久违的小朋友
to say hello to little friend

默默的等待
silently looking forward

坚持的守候
hold on cling on

等待
waiting

却
but

一次又一次的失望
each and every disappointment

破碎的心愿
broken wish

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

hello little friend, sorry little friend
a wish to meet you with "his" accompany is just a dream
a dream that quietly vanish from d heart

假的 | false

promise
say it as you wish
to cover fault
to cool down situation
to entertain

promise
faded with time
hoping one day she will forget
back to as it is use to be
no fault no guilt

how smart you are
to get rid of promise
only d love one believes promise
only her believe your "lies"

结束 | end

wish
hope

looking forward
sad
down
disappointed
broken
hurt
giving up

如果。。。| if...

如果有一天

if one day

她不省人事
she is unconscious

你的心情如何
how would you feel

无宗教论的你会因为她而走进寺院下跪给她祈福吗
as a free thinker, will you kneel down at d temple say prayer for her

你会常来探望她吗
will you visit her often

如果有一天
if one day

她失去记忆
she suffer memory lost

你在生活上会受影响吗
will your life be affected

你会因此理由而离开并放弃她吗
will you take it as d reason to abandon her

如果有一天
if one day

她迷失于越野丛林
she lost in d trail

你会日以继夜的搜寻吗
will you continuously looking out for her

我想。。。 不会
i guess.... NO

因为。。。
because......

"I have constraint"...... "my action was restricted"

she is just stupid

不是 | not

不闻不问不逼不强求

not listening not asking not forcing not pleading

她永远都不是他的女儿

she is forever not his daughter

半 | half

半途课程 · 半个父亲 · 半个快乐

half lessons · half daddy · half happiness

朋友 | friend

什么是朋友？
What is friend?


朋友的定义是什么？
What is d definition of friend?

空中阁楼 | castle in d air

当委屈想诉苦时 | when I'm frustrated and I want to talk

你在哪里 | where are you

当伤心想哭时 | when I'm upset and I feel like crying

你在哪里 | where are you

当害怕想拥抱时 | when I'm in fear and long for a hug

你在哪里 | where are you

口头的 "papa" | d "papa"

现实的空中阁楼 | d castle in d air

静 | quiet

silence sometimes means
"I'm tired of explaining to people who don't even care to understand."

时间 | time piece

时间是最好的老师
time is a good educator

但遗憾的是
unfortunately

最后他把所有的学生都弄死了
all learners' final exam grade is death